Healing in the Unknown

We are human.  We have our ideas and our expectations about everything.  However, sometimes a project, a healing, an effort of one kind or another takes on a life of its own.  It indicates to us how it should go, a direction sometimes quite counter to our expectations and even what we know we "know".  A totally unexpected understanding of how energy moves becomes apparent.

This is a huge opportunity. It is a huge opportunity to Be with what Is, to follow the course of energy that is present, that is guiding me in the moment.  Do I free myself from my rigid expectation, acknowledging what is, trust in the unfolding?  What is required of me to allow this shift of attitude, to change an approach?

Experientially, this opening and awareness has transpired because a modicum of relaxation has entered.  There is less tension around the original expectation. I see there is a slight difference in the apparent energy; before it was so dense, the layers endless, no relief in sight.  I sense a shift has happened, there is an open space available, some breath has been here.  When/how did that happen?  What was present before was a lot of chaotic and static resistance, a blockage. I want to discount this aspect of a healing.  I don't even want to admit it is part of it.  But it is.  It's the messy, ugly, tense part.  The part that doesn't work, has no flow, seemingly little hope is present there.  And that is how it should be; that stuck, uncomfortable no-way-out sense is necessary.  Without that piece, that fever pitch polarity, that excruciating rock bottom reached doesn't give relaxation the loosened door hinge to sneak past.

Especially when working with others, it is very easy to be automatic.  A type of judgement comes in where you've sized up their capacities, their weaknesses, you think you know how to approach them and how to approach the project or healing.  What happens is, quietly the other's efforts (which are unlike your own) have transformed the energy of the project. What you thought was going to have to be the first step, the first hurdle is not.  It is something else. Perhaps, another type of order due to that person's sensibility and type has altered the healing, the coming to a semblance of its own order in the healing.  In my normal way (usually when I've done all that sensible executive assessing), I've misjudged them and their approach.  My unrecognized prejudices have dismissed or denigrated their capacities and misinterpreted what I characterized as weaknesses.  That's human me pretending to be alpha. But the fact of the matter is something is different. The energy has changed.  The layers have fallen away, and I had very little if anything to do with that.  It's unlikely in my world view, but there you have it.  It's surprising.  It's mysterious.  It's welcomed.  It's the Unknown at work.


When this phenomenon occurs it is possible to be grateful.  Grateful that you apparently aren't in charge and don't carry the responsibility for the resolution.  This isn't abdication.  It is inclusion.  It is recognizing something greater than me is at work, something which is unknown.  The awareness of the unknown becomes more transparent when I let go of my personal point of view, my expectations.  It includes others and their seemingly impossible perspective. It allows for the unexpected.  This is what is interesting about healing work.  This is what is interesting about anything; a totally unimaginable, unexpected process and/or outcome.

Gabriel said: "None of us there is, but has a known station."  Koran, chapter 37, verse 164

Because of our chronically reliable attachments (ie: ideas, identity, beliefs, knowledge, feelings), it's a miracle the unknown ever comes for a visit making itself visible, or that we could experience a deep enough sense of relaxation to attract it or have an awareness of it.  In human indoctrination, it is mandatory to know.  It's a different matter entirely to be moving toward a "known station" as the Koran says above, while all the while not knowing what that is.  The known station is not in my power or understanding, but I travel the unknown to get there.  So goes the healing process.

"Even if there is only one possible unified theory, it is just a set of rules and equations.  What is it that breathes fire into the equations and makes a universe for them to describe?  The usual approach of science of constructing a mathematical model cannot answer the questions of why there should be a universe for the model to describe. Why does the universe go to all the bother of existing?"  --Stephen W. Hawking